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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

scrubing-OT>

i think i too lucky until keep scrubing and scrubing...

i'm so tired everyday...

muz standing there for so many hrs

my leg cramp!!!

but i'm a scrub nurse

cant going out and take a rest..

i'm "too lucky" tht's wat i can said..

and i think i also lucky lah...

thks god, for giving me the chances to do something different...

well..as usual, god bless u all and me. haha...

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/27/2006 09:46:00 PM

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

OT posting>

well..nothing much todae ...

first day of OT posting...

when the time everybody was so scared abt to be a scrub nurse(most of them)

well, i'm the one again...

first one to be scrub for the cases when i just walk in to the theater

i suppose to happy or sad..???i'm asking myself....

but, after the operation i fel myself so lucky

cuz the sister said the chances to be scrub is near to "0"

and it happened to me...i'm holding the 0.0001 luck...

god bless the doctors was nice to me and the staff there also teach me a lot...

and i manage to perform until the procedure finished...

i'm soooo happy actually....

haha...god bless...

hope the luck always with me...

and hope tml hav a better day...and for everybody also...

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/26/2006 07:58:00 PM

Monday, December 25, 2006

* christmas*>

hey everybody, this is our christmas and we cerebrate it at viena...

it was great and fun

thks guys...merry christmas and happy new yr

*god bless everybody*

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/25/2006 02:19:00 PM

million thks>

hmmm..a flower frm somebody...

haha..never did i know tht..

anyway , thks alot.

you did make my attachment more enjoyable..

*god bless you and everybody*
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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/25/2006 02:11:00 PM

Friday, December 22, 2006

todae i wan to do the summary for my A&E posting...

overall is quite interesting places...

whereby u can see a lot of interesting and different cases everyday

the lecturer hav a briefing with us..

and the things he told me is tht i was the only one doing cath, defib, do ETT and so on...

haha, i think i should thks to the staff nurse who make me so upset tht day..

after tht ,my luck is not tht bad already

mayb this is what ppl cal:" gd things come after bad things"

well, i do appreciate what they teach me...

especially sister and SSN jeffry

bcuz of them i manage to survive for this whole wk

really thks for their encouragement

but also other SN also quite gd i just dont know their name...

too bad...

i fel so glad tht i manage to participate in resuscitation..

cuz i think i was the only one manage to

get to the real situation ...

i got a lot of "first time" in A&E

thks ya..i got the experience..

hmm..i think i got to stop here if not ppl read my blog wil fall to sleep

haha...

ya..there is a lot of funny things tht happen in A&E..

if ur wan to know can go to penguin's blog and read,,haha...

god bless everybody

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/22/2006 11:36:00 PM

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

story to be continue..>

todae is the second day tht i posted to A&E at P1 again..

i was the only one posted to P1 for the second time...

i very scared the same thing happen to me again..

my mood is very damn down like hell..

and guess what??

todae is tht SN who assess me yesterday in-charged of P1

i told myself, pls bear with it for 8hrs

at first everything was stil ok...

she wan my objective then i told her what is my objective but then she wil say other then tht wat else??

she give me time to think until 9am...

such a rediculous person...

and finally...our lecturer come to see us todae...

so, i cant hold my angry anymore...

i told him what happen yesterday ...and i told him i very disappointed ...

then he tel me, there are some SN is like tht one...

ask me to learn things frm them dont be upset...

so nvm, i know what i should do at least he tel me todae he wil be with me..

what a relief...

and todae, they really change their attitude a bit..

totally different frm yesterday...

sarcastic...(-.-)

and tht particular SN is not in-charged of P1 but she kep coming in and order things for me to do

too purposely..i think i know why...now then i know...

is a secret..cant tel...

haha..what a fool...funny la this type of ppl...

and got one time after resuscitation she ask me to do catherisation again..

haha..guess what she was not sucessful this time cuz i tel our lecturer in-charged

then he said gel are not suppose to do cath for guy only can prepared..haha

then i prepared in front of tht SN with my lecturer..

this time she nvr say anything but b4 tht she purposely say this:

"dont like yesterday hor, everything not well prepared"

in front of lecturer, but he didn't bothered what she said...

hmm...mayb he didn't hear it...woohooo..

ok..this thing let it over..

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thru out the day...

i manage to do 3 resuscitation but only one manage to survive...

quite sad, cuz i already try my best and the trauma team also...

first time bcm the airway nurse in P1..

do learn a lot of things.

i wan to thanks the sister (nurse manager)

she really help me a lot and give me a lot of encouragemenT

without her, i wouldn't be able to be as calm as what i think...

cuz ....is really traumatic cases...

and they are so young...cant imagine...

*god bless them*

dont know everytime do resuscitation i stil cant forget the scene...

i fel so sad for them...

haiz..i think i cannot bcm a A&E nurse,

luckily i didn't choose it...

tml wil be p2 ...

hope to hav a gd day, really pray for it..

tht's all for todae, god bless everybody...

i hope myself can cheer up soon...

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/20/2006 07:06:00 PM

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

upset .....(-.-)...>

todae's mood is sad 99.9% frm 1400 until~~~forever, happy 0.1%frm 0700 - 14oopm

haiz...i hate myself...

my mood very easy to get influence by others ppl

start frm todae, i'll be very strong..

i can not let ppl looking down at me...

and those are just wanted to find fault on me pls!!!

whatever, if u think urself is the perfect one..

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todae i just want to tel another story tht happened to me todae,

the time is 1400, b4 this everything was fine ...

everything go smoothly...but after 1400..

i fel i in the hell...

there is another P1 patient came in..

it just happen tht i go in and see what i can help,

there is other student nurse there..

when this SN ask who wan to do catherisation, everybody walk off like nobody's business

since nobody doing it i said i do..

the trolley for catherisation is bring in by tht SN who asking ppl to do cath...

so suddenly she said b4 u do what muz u do ??

then i tel her all the things tht we learn at sch..

then, she said: " the trolley is not well prepared..

at this time i know i gonna be assess already..

her face looking at me very fierce and some more i don know who is she, why she assess me???

and b4 tht another SN told me tht pt ned to do in-out cath

so i thought tht pt doing in-out not indwelling

and the trolley is prepared by herself(tht SN)!!!!

through out the procedure she was keep finding fault on me...

and at the end i been assess by 3 SN...

what the hell is tht ????

they take turn to assess me at A&E...listen carefully is inside A&E and there is quite a number of pt over there and they should be busy at this time..

but they choose to assess me at this time ....

and the kind of feeling they give me is tht ,

they only wan to show off how fast and how professional they are...

hey pls, for those who assess me...

i'm not train to be a A&E staff and todae is the second day we at A&E posting,

and u giving this type of feeling tht nurse are not helping nurse but they are try to insult a future nurse..

is tht the reason why nobody wan to become a nurse???

is tht the reason why ppl stil look down on nurses???

bcuz they are not coorperative with each other ....

those ppl dont hav the spirit as a nurse

they help pt but they are not helping themself to build up the image as a nurse

well, for godness shake i hope tht this things remind me forever,

as one day i bcm a nurse,

i wouldn't do such things to the student.

cuz ur expectation is high, but ur are not giving student chance to practise to meet the ecpectation ur wanted...

this is the things make me so upset

one day u wil be old also, if all the nurse like tht or there is no more nurse to taking care of ur,

how would ur feel

u're only scared the student until nobody wan to be a nurse

attachment is giving us chance to practise what we learned in the sch but not to get insult by the nurse , ur are paid to work but we are not.

ur word, faces, tune only give me the sense of hurting me...

this is not the first time,...i'm so upset!!!

is this ur wanted to be??

i'm a human being, ur also; but why ur muz do tht???

haiz..sadded....

very disappointed...

*god bless me hav a better day*
it is hurting me

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/19/2006 04:39:00 PM

Monday, December 18, 2006

hmm..todae is the first day attachment at A&E...

well is quite fun, but i'm so busy until i don know i put the themometer at which pt..

when the time i was so panic , i heared this pt frm corner shouted:

missy ar...got sound already...haha...

poor little ah mah..sorry for let u hold the themometer in ur mouth for so long..

i'm not intend to do so but ,well i'm just a bit blur...

pls forgive me..

todae i was attach to this triage P3...

so , is all under observation ...

first time do so much para for so many ppl at one go..

a bit hard to handle cuz most of the time i was alone to do such things..

pt laugh at me why i'm so many things to do,,,,,

i said, as the day i'm chosen to be a nurse i expect it..

it just tht , what we think and real life is different...

but luckily, the doctor there is quite gd..

they make me realise tht team work is very important...

is not only important in nursing pt but also other things in our life..

relationship build up by the hardship of 2 or more ppl dont you realise tht???

a bit tired....when i know tht there are ppl waiting for my help but i didn't manage to help them..

what can i say?? i also just a human being...i cant control things to be happen

pls, forgive me...again...

cherish ur life b4 u regret .tht's what i can said...life is fragile...

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To: someone are important to me..

*well, wishes you all the best and dream come true*

~whatever and no matter how it is..

there is something can not change between us ...

as i think u will know what i'm talking abt..

even though i know u wouldn't see this...

there is something we don hav to mention..

it is always in our heart..

the key to open the heart is depends on how sincere u treat tht person...

again, with the blessing of god...

hope u be able to fulfill ur dreamz...

有些事不一定要说出口，用心灵听你就会感受的到

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*god bless everybody*
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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/18/2006 07:13:00 PM

Sunday, December 10, 2006

super bad day>

hmm~~, i wan to tel a story todae...

it was soooooo unfair to me, and i'm heart broken...

everytime going to attachment, i put all the effort to the ward tht i attach to..

but at the end, i get the same things..

but, today..is more worse to me..

it happened when is almost the time we can go home,

then this doc ask me to assist her for peritoneal tab insertion..(in the ward)

during the procedure, my doc came out cuz nothing can suct out frm the peritoneal spaces..

then she said one hour later continue then see how..

we tidy up everything then clear as usual..

i was a bit tired cuz i assisit a lot of procedure todae until i didn't manage to pass report for my case..anyway is usual to be like tht..

then i was standing ard the doc just now to check whether any instruction to give to my patient b4 i knocked off..

then i saw this pt ask my doc whehter she can go home onot?
then the doc ask her " you get ur things already"?

the pt said "yes".

doc:"then u can go home la".

and few mins after , my sn come and ask me where is the pt, then i said i saw her going home with maid already.

then she ask me why never told her, she haven sigh for the discharge form..

then she make noise and say tht : tht student see the pt going off without signing the discharged form and let pt go off juxt like tht.

and she very unhappy with me...keep complaint infront of her sn
even she speak in "other"language i stil know tht she 's talikng abt me cuz got one sn very gd with me she telling me tht ..

i was sooooo upset at tht time, isn't my fault????

how would i know???

and is the doc tel the pt she can go home not me, i was just happen to be standind ard tht area and know the pt going off..

how would i know pt haven sign the form some more she's holding the letter frm the hospital..

so i don't hav the second thought of tht pt haven sign the form.

this inccident teach me one thing" be a nurse muz have a extra "sense"..

be a nurse muz think a lot!!!

"god bless verybody"

hope my luck wil be better...

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/10/2006 12:17:00 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

*attachment*>

well, todae is the 4th day of my attachment...

this ward is the most" busy" ward, i had never been before.

there wil be something happen in the ward everyday, i mean emergency.

so, i do exercise in the ward everyday bcuz of rushing to borrow ECG machine frm other ward...

some are able to save their life however some are not.

tht's life and tht's fact also.

tis time is the first time i saw so much blood coming out frm the body...

even operation also not tht much and it is non stop ..

we had using 2 pack of blood and 4hr to stop the bleeding, cuz it is the major artery.

thk god, she 's alive.

her bed was soaked with blood and we had used up ~blue sheet +++ and gauze+++

her whole body was bloody and the blood shooting up so high..godness

amazing....

this two days is my " good" day cuz i hav to stand beside the patient and press the artery to stop the bleeding.

and all take a long time, but it worth to do so cuz we are a nurse.

i'm glad i choose to become a nurse, cuz i really learned a lot of things.

*god bless everybody*

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/07/2006 07:57:00 PM

Friday, December 01, 2006

i think i..>

i think i...

一天过一天，从不确定变成了答案
就像着样，停留在只有你去的方向
每当你出现我身旁，就感觉爱情的重量
我越在意越难衡量，就越放不下，越不去想就越是他

i think i love u, 爱就是这样
cause i miss you, 喜欢你善良
陪你去逛逛，会偶尔吵架
吵累了说贴心的话
i'm falling for u 爱就是这样

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I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

# posted by leilei at 12/01/2006 09:50:00 PM